You know how Insomnia can make you do some really
funky sh*t or make your mind wander like you’re in some kind of psychedelic movie tailored just for you,
Alfred Hitchcock got pretty imaginative directing this one. Hmmm, story line? Lets see
where we end up? Leading stars? It is only
befitting to have me as the lead actress, of course when dreaming in a lucid
idling of insomnia I should be the lead actress- who else well play me better
than me, right?
Let’s get on with the show shall we. Well its been exactly
37 minutes since Kate and her 8 said “goodbye” to their show and waved goodbye
to their fans. Don’t Judge, I watched the hour show finale – I know – I know!! How
did I even manage to get sucked into wasting one precious hour of my time? Let
me tell you - I couldn’t help it – I tried and tried to change the channel but,
sorry it wasn’t going to happen- instead I listened contently while also watching
her try to explain what happened with her and Jon. Her expected televised expression “Divorce is hard, Separation is Hard, Knowing it’s over is hard”.
I never
really got who Kate Gosselin was until this evening, sitting before me was a
woman like myself dealing with life in her own way. Interesting enough it didn't matter - my way – her way – there’s no difference, it’s
the way we cope with problems that is different. The problems of life
are one in the same – if we dare take that challenge to dissect the heck out of
it- we are bound to find fragile emotional beings doing the best they can with
the hand they are given – almost seems like a game of Blackjack – maybe a game
of roulette would be a better analogy – depends on the circumstances maybe. For
sure I wouldn’t want to place all my bets on a game of chance – seems a little
dodgy to place everything on one hand of luck.
Is there such a thing as luck or sheer happenstance?
Fluke of life? Hmmm, makes for an interesting conversation with peers, maybe
this could my sociology discussion post.
Getting back to Kate .
There are many things that Kate gets scrutinized for
but she does have a point that establishes a saving grace moment –she say’s
"On
a good day, I feel relief. On a bad day, I feel failure”
Definitely.
Finally
yawning.
2:26
a.m.